I am....

Here now

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Giving it a go

I  took the plunge into making my own jam.....and it worked! I am very impressed with the end result and let's be honest, myself! haha!

It is very important to be organized and have some company

Levi will be turning 2 in early September.

I am a bit torn with having the laptop on the ledge to 'help' me. The independant part of me gives myself a bit of a pep talk about 'winging it' but the learner part of me sees the usefulness of looking a few things up at least the first time. The photo below was me googling to see ways I could wisely use up my squeezed lemons. I'm keen to try drying lemon rind in the near future.

Lemons straight from our tree. Another blessing from our great backyard!

 I was quite shocked at how big our lemon tree seems to have suddenly gotten! It is heavily laden. I am thinking of making lemon butter and lemon meringue pie. Lemon meringue pie is my favorite pie along with cherry pie. Actually pretty much any pie if I'm being honest! Pumpkin pie, blueberry pie, coconut cream pie. Pie, pie, pie!

Isn't it funny how we can put off doing something for awhile because it seems like a lot of effort but in the end when you do give it a go it ends up a lot of fun and not too difficult!

Kiwifruit jam bubbling away. The kiwis were given to me by a very generous friend from her backyard. Organic, grown all by itself fruit tastes a million times better than store bought stuff any day!

 The photo below shows you where the children stand whilst I cook. They all try to argue about who gets the step Levi is on but it basically is a combination of first come first serve, being generous and shortest gets it!

The end result! I'm thrilled! 2 to keep and one for my friend who gave us the kiwis! Finally doing more and more of the things I really want to do! I highly recommend challenging yourself to try something you have been thinking of. For me it is mostly learning new skills, less waste, using what I have. 

Oh and if you ordinarily throw your glass jars out would you mind saving some for me? We are using less and less 'jarred' foods so would love some of yours if they are otherwise going into the recycling bin.

Stress

Feeling stressed lately. It is different to it has been in the past. In the past 'something' would happen. Say.....an unexpected big bill with not enough money to pay for it. Or an argument, offending someone, worry, worry, worry!!  I HATE it so much and now I feel it again but like I said in a different way. Like something lurking in the background. Nothing really happening that would prompt me to be stressed but yet it lingers. Like an unwelcomed guest.

Now I am trying to take deep breaths and go easier on myself. I feel in some ways it was better when I was somewhat of a hermit. I could keep on top of naps, disciplining the kids, housework. It was like something had to give and 'hanging' out with people had to be it.

I don't feel like I was taught how to be generous. I also think I am too hard on myself about it all but still I just do not want a messy house!!  I see other people have messier houses but fuller 'scheduals'.

Let me clarify that I am not comparing myself to others and casting this wholly negative light on myself and I most certainly don't think my value as a person is defined by the cleanliness of my home. I also don't go to other people's homes and notice clean or tidy. I notice them!

Not sure really and can't quite put my finger on it.

Thanks to Bec and Nelle on your replies in my previous post. You were both on the money with what I was referring too. Why do you think I had a shared facebook with Ben for so long! At that stage I was so afraid of people's criticism of me. I had been quite hurt by other people's 'honesty' which was in the end nothing but unfair judgement and making me a scapegoat because I'm 'tough'. Well newsflash.....I am sensitive and tenderhearted. The bold me is true but also the element of the 'soft' side of me is often overlooked.

It is hurtful being constantly made a scapegoat but at the same time I have grown up a bit (thankfully) and now I don't mind (so much). I do long to be that 'nice girl' sometimes though but this also contradicts the me wanting to be a hermit! haha

Better feed the baby and hop him in bed followed closely by myself!

Do you ever

Have things you really want to say on your blog. I mean, it's 'your' place BUT other people read it. Once it's out there is right out there in the WEB. It might not be anything bad per say and it might be at the same time. Something someone did to offend you. I find time often is best with that one. A bit of reflection and you realize it wasn't really worth getting upset about in the first place.

Or a secrt, something embarassing or funny.....guess that's what husbands are for. Good old Ben can be told the non internetty things :)

Since we last spoke....

I have not started sewing all those itty bitty scraps together. I have started a little runner for the top of our new (to us) piano. Something to just give it a bit of a prettying up.

Life has been ticking by with lots to do and lots on my mind.

Yesteray was a beautiful sunny day (almost didn't feel like winter!) so we got out into the yard (all 7 of us). Elijah was site supervisor and the others were calling out left, right and centre "mummy are you watching?" If anything is going to tip me over it might be being asked way way WAY to many times "are you watching?" Especially when they are looking straight at me and asking 3 times in a row without giving me a chance to respond. Silly babies! Nonetheless there were many instances of watching, laughing and smiling.

Our internet has been slowed so now no chance of uploading pictures for a few more days.

Thank you Jaclyn for your camera advice :)

Be back soon with a few things to share. :)

Next stop sewing!

I have finished cutting! All up I have done 1300 2.5 inch squares. Seems like a lot but once they get sewn together.....well who knows how big it will be OR how I will quilt it because I am fairly sure it will be big. Then I will move on I hope to making a quilt for a single bed for someone's birthday. Better motor on as the birthday is not that far away!

Elijah is now nearly 9 weeks old! I can't believe how quickly time goes by but at least I didn't feel terribly busy until baby number 5. I am sure things will settle down soon it's just go, go to look after all these precious little ones.

One thing currently on my mind is....is Double Jeopardy really James? Jewel seems quite 'plump' around the belly! Eek! FYI I am talking about guinea pigs :)

Oh, oh! Just remembered Ethan had a sleepover with scouts last night and had a blast but gee whiz I missed his wonderful presence in the home! :(

Cutting cutting cutting

When I have a little bit of time here and there I have been cutting for my next quilt. A quilt for me! Who knows how long it will take me to finish as it is a scrappy quilt using my scraps. Then I have another quilt I am planning. Ben thinks I should stop once I make Elijah a big one and one for us cos "everyone only needs one". Since when was this about 'needing'.

I enjoy it so very much! Helps me to not be a stress head!

Slowly been feeling stress creaping back lately and don't know why. Onward and upward. It sucks feeling like you are a sucky person sometimes :(