You think you've got it then it feels gone again

Ok, I DID NOT think I 'had' it. You know....

My act together but still

Today has been hard. Not even sure why but I feel heavy and burdened and I am not sure why or even what for really which makes it all the more confusing.

Tomorrow I know is a new day though so for now......goodnight

p.s Wendy and Bec please do a blog post soon....I miss seeing regular updates from you!

Loving even when its hard

Sometimes unexpected things happen.

Sometimes we are confronted with things

Sometimes the realization of our wrong doing's surprisingly comes from within

Now THAT is a hard pill to swallow

So take your pick

Slow and measured breaths....in and out

Big deep breaths.....i......n and o....u....t

Either way dive right in a overcome those things

Come on now YOU know

For everyone it is different but we all have SOMETHING (something's) we need to face

Let go of, toss into the wind ONCE AND FOR ALL leave it behind

Pick something else up instead

love
patience
compassion
forgiveness
freedom
purity

I hope you get the picture and go on jump RIGHT in!

Tick, tick, tick

Another day over.....well not quite. The sun is setting leaving me with a warm glow as it filters through the leaves of the tree I originally wanted to chop down when we first moved in here.

Without that tree I wouldn't see an example of God's amazing creation. Something that once looked dead (much like myself) has burst forth with life but only by HIS power. Beautiful, stunning  King Parrots that have become our friends perch in that tree.

The most we have had visit us at one time is 6. 3 husband and wife pairs. Just devine. One special little guy comes to our windows and does a head-bobby dance to let us know he is out of seed.

So I am reflective today. Letting go of the tight constraints I have clung to for so long. Stretching out my arms and loosening up.

I am footloose and fancy free AND I am even having a garage sale. Livin' it up people. LIVIN'!!!

Tired but content....

Time ticks by....

I am tired these days. Doctor told me I am low in Vitamin D......more sunshine and Vitamin D tablets. Enjoying life. Tired but happy.

Hearing the laughter of our 2 youngest in the bath and going in to see my husband lovingly holding Levi. Swaying him back and forth on his back. Something that delights them both. Grace snuck in there and was also being very loving stroking Levi's hair. Just a picture of happiness. Delight to my soul.

Grace or "Dacie" as she calls herself loves Levi and constantly says "Wevi is my friend".

 Busted! He was MOST upset being discovered

Photo by Ethan.

Photo credit

A reminder

To open them and KEEP them open....heart and hands

Thinking of release

Release from the constraints of.....dunno really.  Hahaha

Not intentionally being ambiguous there :)

Life is good.....most of the time. The missing link, problem is me. Just can't seem to get my head straight. I worry a lot less these days but still too much some of the time too.

Onwards and upwards. Praying for a change. My heart feels at time like it is breaking....in.a.good.way

Falling more away from the world and into Him. Yet, I resist.

Also.....I love my husband!!  I wonderful, caring, kind, gentle, masculine man. Genuinely blessed by God with his personality.

I am 15 weeks pregnant now and time ticks by the same as it does every other day.

No name ideas for this newest blessing so if you are out there shoot some suggestions my way.

Warm whispers.....I need the Lord's warm whispers to tell me it will be ok.

Dear sewing machine

I need mini Japanese hands with supersonic strength, a 'minier' screwdriver that fits the screws on my machine. I am sad cos we have broken bits and I just wanna sew!!!

Wah, wah, wah!!  I have a deadline people!!

On a happier note I am getting and new sewing machine but not till November. It's not that far away but considering I have to baseest povest machine you can get (literally) it seems 6 years away today.

38 more rows I just need it to sew for 38 more rows!!